Reminiscing...

So, last week an acquaintance of mine lost her husband in a tragic car accident.  She is now a single mom and widow at a very young age.  Saturday, as Jeff and I watched football, all I could think about was how she must really be missing her husband that day.  And I didn't know him at all... I knew nothing about him.  I really don't know much about her, except that she loves her little boy and she loves her husband.  As I said, we were just acquaintances.  So why is she on my mind so much?  And why does my heart ache for her so hard? 

I realized that over the years, as I've gone through the most awful scenarios in my mind (from losing my husband, to tripping as I walked down the hall with my newborns), that I'm not invincible.  I would NOT be okay if something happened to my wonderful husband and my children - at least, not at first. 

My friend may not understand what her "silver lining" is in the loss of someone so precious to her, but I understand what it is for those of us that take what we have for granted on a day-to-day basis. 

Father God, I have not been the wife and mother You want me to be.  I sin daily and I beg your forgiveness.  You grant me so many blessings that are undeserved.  Before You now, I ask for peace for my friend, Sarah, and comfort for the Payne family.  I thank You for the lesson this tragedy has taught me, and so many others, even as I grieve with Sarah and her family in their time of loss.  I thank You most of all for the Cross!  Thank you for your Son, Jesus Christ.  It's in His Name I pray, Amen.